MUNCHKIN

munchkin
i miss you so much!

come home will ya please

what are the things i hate the most when we're apart?

a) i hate to see people holding hands!! i miss holding your hands =( i hate them so much for being able to hold hands. i miss you =(

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b) i hate it when there's new movie coming out but i have no heart to watch it. cause i wanna watch the movie with you.noy with anyone else =( i wanna watch Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen with you!!!

c) i hate when i feel like eating out at fancy joint, i cant. simply because they dont want to spend their money on great food. and i hate it when i eat, there's no you to feed me =( my eat-out buddy is not here =( owh how i miss that lunch we had at Chili's.

d) i miss hanging out with you and rocking the Guitar Hero!! you were so nice and sweet to give me the chance to take the guitar part and not bass. and the way you got the highest score for Metallica's One always make me proud of you =)

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e) i miss hanging out with you at the mamak's. tho it may have seemed like i hated hanging out there so much because you can sit there for hours talking to your peeps and i just sat there holding your hands =( and whenever i'm in setiawangsa passing by Ali's Bistro, it always makes me sad thinking of you.

photo credit: Fahrul Hakim @ Flickr

it's so funny how i love all the stuffs that we do together but when you're not here, i hate them so much!! i hate the fights when we're so far away, but not when you're here.

i want you home!! =( cause i miss you munchkin.

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ooops..that's not you. i miss you munchkin, my Abu Sufian!!

"we run...

running all the time

running to the future

with you right by ny side

and me...

i'm the one you chose

out of all the people

you wanted me the most"

Kesusasteraan Inggeris di Tanah Pasir Penambang Kuala Selangor

i love writing poems.

not just when i'm feeling down ('cause most people love to write when they are down). i admire Rumi the most and Hafiz sometimes. and when Abu's birthday or our anniversary is coming up, and i dont have much cash left, i'll be buying nice coloured papers and write down my feelings for him. i'll write anything that comes to mind and pretending like i was the next Rumi =). they turn out to be the best gifts on the list.

i wanna thank the ministry of education for realising the fact that us malaysians do need to learn some literature although it was a bit late, in the 2000s. well, we (cool people born in 1986) were not exposed to literature up till 2002 and truth be told, i pretty much hated The Pearl haha. it was a sad story and i hated it so much. i dont know what they learn nowadays but maybe the ministry could try and find another less dark story. maybe. and i've always wanted to learn The Phantom of the Opera although it is not in the syllabus for us. such a cry baby i am when i cried watching the movie =(

i dont remember much all the poems that were taught to us but the one that i remember the most is the one by Robert Frost. =)

Robert Frost (1874–1963). Mountain Interval. 1920.

1. The Road Not Taken

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

this poem has taught me to be who i wanted to be and follow my heart. made me realise that the way everything were set before us need not necessarily be the same exact path that we have to choose to follow. there are choices in live and we better be wise to choose the best for us. this is my interpretation of this poem. i doubt i'll get an A for English if i wrote this in my answer sheet for SPM =P but i did get an A =) thanks Teacher Anis and Teacher Samiah. You guys rock!!

owh how i miss the school days. the boring classes. the always-taste-like-leftovers meals (i was living in a hostel you see). the time-to-sleep-and-chat-around prep hours. the skin-darkening campings. the owh-so-cool places i went for weekly outing. all the pretty boys in school. all the respected teachers (especially my Cikgu Rokiah and Teacher Anis Aryanti). the bitchy fights we had with the seniors and juniors. the phone calls we made to radio stations, and usually it was Radio 4 RTM a.k.a Traxx Fm when we were to lazy to study. all the silly little girl flings i had. and the musolla a.k.a the slumberland because it was the best place to take a nap =P.

just to name a few. school days are fun. trust me little boys and girls. you may feel like wanting to finish school by tomorrow to be in colleges, but think again. you wont get to eye cute boys without feeling less gedik and silly. unless you are natural born gedik. =) you wont get to be all that emo cause if you do, people will hate you but in school, you'll be the coolest boy/girl and you'll be in the same wagon with Jared Leto. in school, you get to make a lot of friends as you please one day and buat taik with them as you please the other. reason is, you're still young. there's still a lot you have to earn. but when you're in your 20s, you put up such attitude and no one will want to be your friend.

school days are fun. i wish i am 16 now. =( being a young man and lady rocks!
if i may take the other road now, i wish that it will lead me somewhere where i never have to grow up.

i dont think/know if i have grown up to be the person that my teachers had hoped for. but one thing for sure, i have always tried my best in everything i do =)

the hall

waa...kenapalah aku buat entry ni? tiba-tiba timbul perasaan rindu yang teramat sangat!!

anie. azah. murni ayu. shima. suban. fufu. azie. aelin. dayah. niza. zaza. degu. fifi. suria. julia. raihana. aynie. saa. hasmal. jaja. (i betcha i might've missed some names here. sorry girls. i'll update it as soon as possible)

i miss you girls!

i wish the ministry will think of other great poets and poems =)

till then.. take care guys =)

Good Samaritan Malaysians

I've lived in KL and Selangor for all my life. except for a couple of years when I was around 4 or 5 years old, i lived in Ipoh. Of all the bad things I read in the newspaper about KL, I thank God that i havent encountered any of them. Never been smugged or groped even in a really jammed and packed LRT. My grandma in kampung always have a negative view on the big city. So does a friend of mine from Penang, who loathes KL so much! (go pack your things and leave then) =)

So, what makes me bring up this topic? I passed out in the LRT two weeks ago. Fyi, anyone close to me would know that i hardly fell sick. It's been ages since I last caught fever. In fact, I dont even remember if I ever caught one. Not even selsema ( I refuse to use 'flu; because my english teacher once told me that influenza and selsema are slightly different).

It was a monday. A dull monday. Garfield's right. Monday is never fun! as usual, the train was so packed u cant even budge a milimetre. Trust me. It's like domino effect. One person moves, the others will do too.

I felt a surge of blood. and seram sejuk. real cold. The train was nearing Damai station. Then another surge of blood. The next thing i know, a lady was holding me "dik, duduk dik...".

what the...? did i just faint? malu!! haha...

The nice lady asked me "are u ok?". of course I wasnt. I gave her my most not-ok face because i seriously wasnt ok. Then she asked me where was I heading to. Told her Kelana jaya, and she was suprised cause it was not even half way there yet. Then she rummaged through her purse and pulled out a Snickers bar. "Nah amek ni.. awak tak sehat ni.. makan coklat. Take care tau. Akak turun dulu." It was the KLCC station. So, evidently, I passed out through approximately 3 stations. That was quite a while. If it was a man who helped me, I might have been officially groped in a train for the first time. I felt like crying when the kakak left me.

kakak!!jangan la turun. jaga la saye! =P

My knees were trembling, no im not kidding you. So i didnt go to work that day. Went to UIA clinic and the doctor (the doctor whom I am scared of the most) gave me paracetamol, the wonder medicine. A medicine for all illnesses. And an MC. For that day. Later that night, me and my mom went to our family clinic and I got an MC for the next day =)

yeay!!my offical first MCs since I never fell sick. So that was my first encounter with a good samaritan.

My second experience was just last week. Seriously people, I myself dont even know what the hell is wrong with my body system!! I felt like fainting for the second time that I had to squat on the floor. as I was about to squat, the kakak who was sitting immediately reached out for my hand and asked me to take her seat. I was so touched!! There are nice people in KL! Like the first kakak, she too asked me where was I heading to etc.

But this time around, no Snickers for me =( but I thank you kakak for your sympathy.

So these are my encounters with good samaritans. And I will never forget my Snickers. Thanks kakak!

And i hope I will have the opportunity to help others when they are in need.

What is good samaritan principle?

google it people. =)

These incidents make me proud of KL even more. and I pray to God that I will never have to encounter any evil things in KL.

If you dont agree with the Good Samaritan Principle (since its a Christianity thingy), but I believe that even in Islam we are encouraged to help others when in need, you still can find the rationale in it. Muslims are bound to be helpful. Plus, mind you that in Christianity, if the story was right, this principle was brought into existence by their Jesus a.k.a our Prophet Isa. Therefore, we still can follow the principle because helping others is not a sin and Isa is our prophet. I believe we have our own version of the Good Samaritan story. I will try to find it. =)

Thing is, do good things people. You'll be blessed and you'll feel good about yourself.
=)

My Music

The Kooks

Little Joy

The Strokes

Not many people get my taste of music.

some say its too loud.

some say its too simple.

some say mean things that they wanna say.

but if i listen to what people say about my taste of music, i'll end up being just another boring girl who takes every one hit wonders as her favourite music.

i despise that idea!

so, not to brag, but before everyone were all hooked up on Katy Perry, i've been listening to her months before that.

i came across her on the internet.

the song that got to me was You're So Gay.

then came the rest of her songs.

so maybe, MAYBE i am a pop chick.

apart from her, i love Lady Gaga.

some people dont get her.

"shes a slut, shes a drag, shes fake"

some mean things people say to show that they're cool.

but i love her.

Poker Face? i listened to that long long time ago.

when all other girls are still trying to figure out the lyrics to Just Dance, i found another favourite song of mine from her.

Love Game.

oh ya, and Eh, Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say)

shes hot man! (not in a way a man would say it =) )

i was always the girl who listens to a song and people will say,

"Lagu ape tu? pelik nye."

and few weeks later, they'll get hooked on that song.

shheessh girls!!

i remember Kiss Me Thru the Phone

back when it wasnt a favorite play on the radio, i had it as my ringtone.

a friend of mine said, upon hearing it

"tak sedapnye lagu!"

(jilat la your own spit young lady!)

so those are my Pop Pleasures for the moment.

other pop acts that i listen to:

Lilly Allen

Feist

Regina Spektor

Dido

Jewel (before she was slutty)

and those who know the way to pop my world!

=)

I am more of a rock chic actually.

but not Secondhand Serenade. (euuww)

you're a guy who cries for a girl every single day and you call yourself a rocker?

dont put the guitars to shame!

my all time favourite?

THE STROKES!!!

their sound: Hard to Explain. =)

i'm waiting impatiently for their 4th album.

favourite songs?

all of their songs are lovable.

but tell you the truth,

they are not love at first listen!

the sounds might be annoying at first, but later on after a few spins,

you're hooked on them!

other bands that i listen to:

Coldplay (everybody hated them while i was in high school. only me and Puyat found them as an excellent musician)

Kings of Leon

The Kooks

The Killers

Albert Hammond Jr

Little Joy

No Doubt

Oasis

Radiohead

The Cranberriess

and some other bands.

my playlist?

people will stop listening to it after a few songs.

i'm sorry i dont have I'm Yours in my playlist

i'm sorry i dont have Daughtry in my playlist

i'm sorry i dont have all the hit songs that u listened on the radio and decided that it should be your favourite song.

but i love my playlist!

and it's mine!

and i am so blessed to have Abu who shares almost exactly the same taste of music.

disclaimer:

im not saying that i have an excellent taste of music.

but this is my taste of music.

i dont diss yours, you dont diss mine.

deal?

"in many ways, we'll miss the good old days.

sometimes."

"you said you wanna stay by my side.

darling your head's not right"

Today I Googled... FMYLIFE

today i Googled fmylife.com

its a web where people tell the worst thing that happened to them in their daily lives.
i dont know why.
but something is telling me that maybe 95% of the stories are made up.
not true stories.
i dont know though.
maybe you shoud check it out yourself.

Shoe Emergency!

it was not a good day for me.

it didnt start off very well but i hope it'll get better.

i slept early last night. well, actually i fell asleep in the middle of that Ashton and Tara's movie. i dont know what it's called. it was before midnight. leaving Abu alone, but i betcha he wasnt alone.

he was having a ball with his new friend, Mira!
(hello mira, cant wait to get to know u. so. you're an indie girl, ey? wait till i see you, ima ask you everything indie and let's see how you'll score).

it's ok Abu, i have 90% trust in you. that's a lot. trust me. you couldnt ask for more.(i love you muah)

so the next morning, the alarm woke me like a crazy lady trying to tell me that the world is coming to an end in the very next minute. well, snoozing the alarm has become a bit of a habit lately.

i finally got up at 6.45 (in my entire life, before i started my practical last month, i have never wake up earlier than 7.30am. let alone 7am). trust me!!

this is a torture in disguise! =(

few shit-i'm late's later, there i was. in a rush trying to catch the 7.15 bus to the train station. walking like a mad dog through the effing muddy playground. (dont get me wrong, i do thank God for the rain last night).

fyi, i put on my 2-inch red heels (it wasnt mine. my sister's). quarter way there, the shoe came off! i thought it just slipped out off my foot. well guess what?

as you can see in the picture, it was a strappy one and yes, the front strap decided to sabotage me and 'dislodged' itself from the sole just like that.

long story short,
i had to walk pass the playground, with all the school kids staring at me like i was a b*tch who just got back home from a wild night, with a shoe in my hand.
did i mention that it rained last night?
yes, i had to walk through a muddy playground, half-bare-footedly.
on the plus side, i got free mud spa for my tired foot.
Thank God! =P

after the quick change, at 7.30, took a cab to the bus stand. the bus came at 7.45.
seriously, i was late. finally arrived at the office at 9.15am.

possible remarks from my practical master:
this trainee is able to grasp everything taught and she is a focused trainee. managed to finish her assignments accordingly. however, her attendance record might need some major adjustments. =)

but the rest of half the day went just well.
except for the fact that i'm freezing to death.
(Gila sejuk!)
i know guys, every one of us once dreamt of furthering our studies in the US, the UK, and the Poles. but turning on the AC full blast will not help us achieve our dream.
seriously, it wont!
sejuk!!

well, i believe that every girls will agree with me that once in our lifetime, we had or will have at least one shoe emergency!

it happened on my first date with Abu 5 years ago.
it was a sweet sweet day, but my flipflops.
damn, they just didnt know when would be the appropriate time to cause a scene.
end up, Abu bought me a COMFY sandal from Bata.
it was COMFY girls!
girls, comfy=aunties' sandal.
but it was the sweetest gesture a girl could ask for on the first date. i love u Sayang. thanks.

i hate shoe emergency!!
makes me feel like buying a dozen of new shoes.

photo credit: http://bombshellwithin.files.wordpress.com/2008/02/dscf1573-small-small.jpg

not my shoes and not my foot but the one i was

the shoes i was wearing look a bit like this and the front starp came off just like that.

Today I Googled... Papua New Guinea

Today is Geography and World Culture day..

(btw, is there anyone out here who enjoys watching Are You Smarter Than A Fifth Grader?? i just watched the episode where Tony Hawk made an appearance =) )

i have always wondered...
where is this country actually?
how do the people look like?
what is their staple food?
do they have their unique one of a kind traditional music?
is the country nice?

i found the answers!!
"Papua New Guinea occupies the eastern half of the island of New Guinea, just north of Australia, and many outlying islands. The Indonesian province of West Papua (Irian Jaya) is to the west."

i know, i know. this is a boring fact. haha, but tell you what? it's a country with rich cultures and traditions and nice sandy beaches (somehow, it's similar to Malaysia, except for the fact that the country is under developed. maybe it's better that way, 'cause we do need a country with untouched (although not fully) beauty)

go google it!!

rather than going to Africa to be in touch with nature, how about going somewhere closer to home my fellow South East Asians? =)

Serenity... everywhere..! i can fall asleep in this place for days even if there are mosquitoes bugging me. damn you mosquitoes! =P just throw me a nice quilt and a fluffy pillow and my Abu, i'll be gone to slumberland for eternity =)

A Melanesian Girl

The Beautiful Beach (flickr)

The food?

hmm.. i found two recipes. might be worth trying at home.

Chicken Pot (Adapted to Port Moresby)
one chicken cut into serving pieces
a little oil
kaukau (sweet potato)
bunch of green onions
pumpkin tips
cobs of corn
2 coconuts for cream
salt to taste
curry powder to taste
1. Place chicken in the pot with a little oil if necessary.
2. Chop kaukau and place on top of chicken.
3. Coarsely chop green onion and add next.
4. Coarsely chop pumpkin tips and add next.
5. Peel and break corn to place on top of greens.
6. Squeeze coconut milk over the meat and vegetables to cover.
7. Cover and bring to a boil.
8. Cook gently for 30-40 minutes.
9. Add salt and curry powder.
10. Serve as a meal. You could separate the vegetables and meat for
serving and place the liquid in a container to serve as a sauce or soup.

Coconut with Mixed Vegetables
6 cups of mixed vegetables(whatever is available for instance you can use any of the following carrots, snake beans, kau kau or sweet potato, zucchini, green or red peppers, eggplant, potatoes and peas)1 crushed clove of garlic2 fresh small chillies, seeded and chopped½ cup fresh coconut cream,½ cup grated coconut2 tablespoons of oilBoil a cup of water in a saucepanBoil each vegetable separately in the same waterEnsure that each vegetable is lightlycooked but still firm to biteUse a little more water if it has evaporatedDo not throw away the water once you have cookedthe vegetablesMix together all the ingredientswith the saved vegetable waterand bring to the boil. Add all the vegetables and simmer gently for five minutes.Serve with plain, boiled white or brown rice.

As you can see, coconut is a must in a Melanesian dish. do try these at home. Abu, i hope you'll enjoy them if i ever cook them =) i tried to put up some pictures of the food but it was a failed attempt. but you can always google it yourself =)

i found this country as one great escapade!! maybe i'll go there one day. but not for my honeymoon 'cause i want to spend my honeymoon in NY! the big apple!
so long..
till tomorrow, take care everyone

I said something terribly bad!

but it's only for me to know.
not to be shared with the whole world.
but i feel so damn guilty... and trust me, it doesnt feel good.
not even a bit.

"owh dear mouth,
why do you have to say something so mean
owh dear thoughts
why do you even dare to think about that
owh dear me
stop hurting him
or you will be the one getting hurt"

Mood: guilt stricken

Lesson of the day:
From Abu Hurairah, Prophet Muhammad once said "O ye who believe in Allah and the Judgment Day, say only nice things, if you are not able to do so, say nothing".

~ will try to shut my mouth whenever i feel like saying something real bad~
(but not all the time, cause i'm only human. i have lotsa thoughts and they deserve to be free and not stucked in my head. fly thoughts, fly.plus, it's no fun if i cant say what i wanted to. isnt it?)

Seriously, i apologize to anyone whom i might have hurt his/her feelings =)
if you insist on not hearing bad and terrible things coming out from my mouth, you better dont mess around with me, got it? Haha.. sharp tongue i am.

Better mood as the day goes by =) i hope.

The Most Irrelevant Book I've Read... So Far.

You can call me a book worm. it's alright. i wont bear a grudge against you because to be honest, i believe in the COOLNESS of being someone who reads. it's cool to be able to go out socialising with your clique and still reserving some times alone at home with a book in hands (although this will usually be my the last option on my weekend list). let's talk about the problem of the Malaysian society which finds reading as a lame thing in my future posts. not now.

so, the book i read was The Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella. it was a best seller! i know, i know, ms. Kinsella has a world wide group of followers. and i may be receiving threatening comments or even threatening snail mails from her avid fans, but i believe in the freedom of speech that i have. =) i am not a good writer, but everyone has her right to put her tuppence in everything =) My two cents is that this book is so unrealistic... in its worst way!

it's the power of being a writer actually when you write about a young, successfull woman living in the big city with a big ambition and a pocketful of not sunshine apparently, but a pocketful of troubles and problems which is the biggest cliche you may find in this beautiful world of writing, and yet, you still be regarded as the best writer of the century and your books became bestsellers. too bad. everyone with the gift of writing can write a typical chick-lit.

honestly, i have nothing against ms. kinsella. but i pity her for her lack of fresh ideas (maybe IT IS a fresh idea in her own imagination library. but tell me honestly, how many times have you read a book where a girl (or a woman, because she always have a character which is a young woman, but with a pathetic mind who doesnt know how to think rationally, like a 10 year old girl), was at the peak of the world and suddenly her world came tumbling down, and there he was... THE KNIGHT IN THE SHINING ARMOUR (but in this book, it was a gardener with so many sharp tools to trim the bushes *wink*, including his overtly sharpened sex appeal, which was written in a way to make the readers drool).

so, this is what happened in the book. there was this one lawyer, a succesfull young lawyer, who was bred and fed with everything legal in every possible way. thanks to her mother who is a top gun in the legal world. there she was, on being promoted to be a partner in the firm she was working at, an incident happened where she was put to blame for a loss of millions which she believed she did not do, which turned out to be true as it was a senior partner who sabotaged her for certain malicious intents.

she ran away from her problematic life into a village where she became a housekeeper. and she was happy being a housekeeper for a filthy rich couple and eventually fell in love with the hero, who was a gardene who happened to have his own problems and issues, which include lawyer allergy. she came to know this and decided to keep it as a secret from him that she is a top ranking lawyer in the city. her friend came to bring some sense into her, which for a while she did grasp her senses, but the next minute, she made up her mind that she wanted to be a housekeeper for life and to live HAPPILY EVER AFTER with the guy of her dream. SERIOUSLY??????

you may see this as something blahblah.. but for me, being a law student (ok, i know im yet to a lawyer), this book reflected how shallow a great lawyer thinks. ms.kinsella makes a lawyer looks so stupid and unable to think straight when it comes to love and romance. im not saying that lawyers should be heartless and should live a restless life. but running away from her problems is not a path anyone, especially a lawyer should be taking.

there was one point in the book where she realised that she fell in love with her new life because she was so exhausted living in the city with all the datelines to meet, all the dates she missed and all her birthdays that her family keep forgetting. she found her escape but she realised that she cannot be living that way forever since it was only her heart telling her that this is the life determined for her but not her mind, which for a second realised that she felt that way because her body was in a serious need of a break. and i tought she was gonna do what her mind told her to, but THE POWER OF LOVE surpasses every single working cells of her brain. the only morale of the story is that YOUNG LADIES, PLEASE DONT BE SO STUPID AND SO CUPID-STRUCK AND BE STRONG. DONT GIVE UP EASILY.

i cannot believe it if anyone found this as a romantic book worth reading. this is BS. it encourages the young women to do nothing but to give up on life. ms. kinsella, i know you are trying to be a romantic writer who believes that love is what everyone needs. but all your books that i've read, they are so unreal. I read Confessions of a Shopaholic, and now, i remember none from the book except briefly that the book is about a young women living in the city (cliche) , who loves to shop (which is quite similar to me) and then came problems and finally, the perfect romance. i am sorry ms. kinsella but i believe that if you really are an amazing writer, i may remember every bit of that book. sadly, i dont. Among the books which words are tattooed to my mind is Carry Me Down by MJ Hyland. it's a great book.

maybe you are trying to show the readers that in this cruel and mean world we are living today, we still can rely on love to help us to be humane again. but please, be more realistic.

in a way, i found this book as demeaning the lawyers. but dont worry, its me against the world. you still have a big group of supporters. good for you.

call me anything you want, but here it is, my tuppence. go read the book yourself. if you are a sucker for romance, maybe you will fall head over heels reading it. but if you are living in a real world, dont even think of reading the synopsis of the book at the back cover of it. one read of it and you will get the whole idea of the book.

disclaimer: this is only my personal book review. no offense to anyone. dont get me wrong as someone who doesnt have a heart. i do. if i dont, i wont be a fan of The Wicker Park, The Phantom of the Opera and My Sassy Girl. it's just the way the book makes me feel. a surge of annoyance the very moment i finished reading it.

my day, my way

"my day
as usual as it may
be
even on the day
i was born.
my way
not others'
favourite way
but i'm fine with it
so have a good day
in any way
you want it to be"

hello everyone. just to be clear, do i have to do the introductory speech? nah, dont think so. we'll get to know each other in time. so, nice to get to know you, everyone! have a good day.

my favourites:

1. http://www.thestrokes.com/ check them out!!! waiting IMpatiently for their 4th album.

2. food!!anything face-stuffable. haha

3. (will update the list later.)

regards.